Last Thursday I called in sick, meaning I rescheduled my calls. I was proud of myself for resisting the “am I wimping out?” voice. But, I was antsy and bored and kept checking email, which left me feeling pressured. I couldn’t find a good series to binge watch, was too tired to go out for soup and orange juice, and couldn’t find anyone who wasn’t working or was willing to return my nasal, “I’m sick..call me” messages. Then, aware that I hadn’t “Ferris Beullered” the day, I beat myself up, worried that I hadn’t optimized my sick day enough to bounce back powerfully on Friday.
Aye, aye, aye, kick me when I’’m down. No fair. And…I think I’m not alone. Beating ourselves up when things don’t go just right is a theme I hear a lot. Here’s a cool TED talk about being in a fog and still making progress. There are times of the year when the world is moving fast in unison and it’s hard to see that we are moving too. October is one, and the first few months of the year is another.
In the end, I had a good long nap during my sick day, and watched A Few Good Men, one of my classic go-to’s when I need motivation. And Friday I did feel great, despite a day that wasn’t “perfect.”